So as a few may know I have been having a hard time in real life for a while now and am very close to giving in. I want to put my word on here hoping that at least the majority of you will be understanding. I of course understand that the details listed below may be hurtful and upsetting for some so only read on at your own discretion.
I can’t remember how long ago, but a while ago I went out drinking with some people I called friends at that time.
I unfortunately had a little too much to drink and spoke about my most concerning secret about how I have an attraction to animals (yes I am a zoophile). However, I would never, hurt or do anything to any living being. Never could and never have. I love animals (in the non-weird way) too much to do anything.
Either way they found out and rumor got around in my friend group and after a week, my school.
They described it to people as though I was raping and abusing animals in my own home, including my own family’s dog named Binx.
This got the attention of the RSPCA (which is the animal welfare group in the UK) and they came by and explained what they heard to my family.
But never! Never have I, will I or could I do anything as such to any animal. While the attraction is there I have absolutely no intentions whatsoever on acting upon them.
My family after hearing this started making assumptions that I had raped the dog to the point she could hardly walk straight and that why she is the way she is now. But no, it’s litteraly because she is 18 and a half and is struggling to walk because of old age.
After she was taken to the vets the people there said that there was no evidence of my rumoured actions.
Yet my family still refuses to believe this and kicked me out of the house, took most of my belongings and left me with almost nothing.
It was at this point I realised the only thing I really had left was my job.
I was on a holiday break at this point to focus on a project I had to do. But when I got back I had a lot of snickering from my fellow Batista’s who had all treated me like family.
I got a request from the boss and I already knew what it was about. She had fired me on the spot because of it all.
After a week of living on the streets I really don’t know what to do. At one point a group of teenagers stole my phone and beat me up in an alley where I was getting ready to sleep, I have had people try to get me into county lines and have had to fight for a place to sleep with other people in a similar situation.
The only bit of security I had was when I went to the library to read as I still had my membership from the past. However it is due to run out in a couple of days and when that happens I have just enough money saved up to kill myself.
I wanted to let everyone here know that this is an amazing community however you need to be wary of those people around you, sometimes they can see things the wrong way and ruin aspects of your life.
Thank you all for letting me be a part of this community however I may be leaving… Forever.
~Ico